i'm gonna miss you. so bad.

you are the closest heaven that i'll ever be.

you

hey. how are you today?
still have a cough?
sorry. my illness is just going everywhere ;p
get well very soon, love.

well, we are getting closer each day.
i think. but i don't know what are you thinking right now.
maybe i'm just a friend for you.
but i'm falling deeper for you :)
i haven't met you yet today.
its like hell for me.
i miss you so damn much.
where are you? :(
i just can't imagine to not see you for a long time.
you know that we will not see each other for next 2 months.
i hate it now.

i tried to not show my feeling to you or to our friends.
but i can't pretend not to care when you're sick like now.
do not care if you're late in the morning, and you didn't do that final test.
i just wanna do a little thing that i can do for you.
just like give you my ovaltine everyday before you wake up.
wake you up every morning even i have to wake up earlier.
give you my medicine.
keep your blackberry and wallet in my bag.
i just wanna see you, feel your touch, hear your laugh.
i love when you touch my hair or even smell it.
i love when i have a chit chat with you.
i love to see your weird hand replica in my room ;p
i love to see you eating.
i love to see you sing. yeah, you're my melody.
i love to hide this feeling.
i just wanna scream out loud, tell you i love you.
but i know i can't.
never.
someday, if you know about this fuckin feeling,
you know how to find me.
you know how to tell i love you too, right? :)

friends(?)

i miss my highschool friends.
not really. because i'm too tired for hoping that you are there, guys.
too tired to ask you guys out. make some fun like we used to be.
and yeah, semua dah sibuk sama hidupnya masing2.
kuliah, dan hal hal lain.
kadang gue bingung, kenapa jarak sampe sebegitu berartinya buat kita.
waktu.
its too bad, isnt it?

yah daripada tiap balik bogor diajakin maen pada ga bisa, yaudh di jakarta aj ;p
balik bogor juga skr cm buat ktmu si mamapapa aja.
sisanya? yah kalo bisa maen, itu beruntung doang.
hahahah ;')
sorry, emang ga maksud nyindir.
but this is what i feel.
just try to tell you guys this.
errr.

sejujurnya, gue sekarang jauh lebih nyaman sama tmen2 gue di sini.
i have awesome friends in here.
really awesome.but trust me.
you have your own place in my heart.
don't ever think i will forget you guys.
maybre this time i just tired.
too tired.