tired , but happy :]

gue pny bbrp hal baik hari ni :]

1. gue dah mulai sedikit bisa melupakan dan ga mikirin diaa .

2. hr ne audisi MD . we got 6 new members in UK ;)

3. kaena gue jadi ngrayain buat 17an gue . emank masih lama bgd c , tp wkt tuh ga krasa . jd kudu mulai preparing dr skr ;p

mgkn mau ngundang dia m tmen"nyaa . pgn c liat dia gy . moga" dia dateng ya nti .

audisi MD so far c lancar . i heart runee and tamara's style :D

ad 2 org yg ga gt gue dmen c . tp kudu profesional pan ? ;p

dah mulai latihan hari ne .

nambah 6 orang baru gy d UK .

dan pastiny itu butuh rasa sabar gy :]

moga" ajah bisa lanacar yaa . UK bisa jdi bagus :D

tadinya seudah lat mau ikut ngeksis m mba m yg laen . tp dah jnji m mama mw k grj .

jd mw lsg pul .

gtwny mh kg jd si mamah t .

gy sakit diaa .

get well soon , mom :]

damn . knp kudu kgn bgd m dia pas gue ngetik blog ini ? :(

dia tau ga yaa ?

peduli ge kaga . boboro .

moga" dia bisa ngejalanin klas 2 ny dg baik yaa .

gue sayang dia .

hoaaa . pen BB javelin bgd.

tp t masih ragu m smua" nyaa . hieks . memory kcil .

trus takut ribet .

tp kae enak aj gt .

pgn pake hp yg ad keypadny . bosen m touch screen )':

17 oktober .

my birthday .

moga" ja bisa jd bday y berkesan bgd m diaa .

pgn pny cowo .

tmen" gue aj wkt candle couple jg lilin yg k 17nya m pcrnyaa .

kan so swit ;p

ngarep abis .

tp emank blom waktunya kali yaa ?

i feel so lonely now . really .

hape jg adem ajah noh . kg smsan m sapa" .

kg deket m sapa" .

sering ngecek hp , tp kosong .

kgn smsn m dia gy .

dia lagi ?

omg .

just get out of my mind for a while , boy .

let me take a rest for a while .

omgomg .

blerk .

i hate this part . really !

dia

mimpi dia sms gue )':

kangen dia .

love , S .

KANGEN

i miss him crazily !

help me to get over this feelings !

sucks !

it's really hurt me .

i miss him but i can't do nothing .

kangen banget m dia . banget .

kangen tiap kata" dia .

tiap smsan m dia pasti bisa buat gue senyum .

kapan lg bs ngrasain itu ?

pgn cerita .

tapi ga ada yang ngerti .

dia jg ga ngerti .

dia kangen gue ga ya ?

mgkn ga .

dia dah pny hidup dia yg laen .

and i was nothing for him .

kasih tau dia kalo gue kangen banget sm dia .

sedih kalo inget dia .

tiap hal yg gue lakuin pasti ngingetin gue sm dia ,

kaya tadi gue mos .

bete bgd .

bete m penu .

m uk .

i wish he were there .

pgn smsn sm dia .

biar gue bete jg smsan m dia tuh kae suplemen buat gue .

keep in touch m dia tuh kae vitamin buat gue .

seengganya dia bisa buat gue senyum sedikit .

tadi gue bener" ngerasa sendiri .

tadi mau demo ekskul .

gue manager MD nya kesatuan .

yg pertama . sound .

itu dah ribet . untung ada arya .

thanks , yaa :]

trus penu mw ambil dasi gtwnya blm beres .

pdhl kmren dah ksna trus tokonya tutup .

mau di ambil tadi katanya belom beres .

trus gue yang disuruh ngambil .

yaudah .

gue dah sibuk nyariin tumpangan .

turun naek tanggan mpe 5xan mah ada .

pas nyampe audio nanya gue pegi m sp ,

nak" dance pada diem .

ga ngasih solusi .

org itu dasi jg dasi mreka .

malah diem .

yaudah , jimmy nganter gue .

makasih ya jim :)

trus jg MD tuh pake korsi .

org mah udah teh bawain ini mahalh player jijil m korsi , gue m nak" osis yg bw .

arya , alun , nibras ,vivi , gue .

padahal dah gue smsn suru turun bawa korsi .

ini ga turun malah voto" .

sumpah udah kesel bgd gue .

pgn nangis ne jg critany gy .

dah kehel .

trus wkt osis trakhir ,

jijil blg d ibaratin aj lo pny coklat ,

coklatny mw lo kasih buat siapa yg berjasa buat mos skr .

pas giliran penu , dia cm blg mw ngasih buat arya , mimink m sp gtuh 1 gy .

nama gue ga dsebut .

ga berjasakah gue buat MD ?

cape" ngambil dasi , ribet .

tp ga dhargain .

sedih .

iya x , mank mreka jg ga butuh gue .

makasih aja .

i really hate this day .

pgn nangis .

bharap dia kangen m gue .

bisa smsn sm dia pas gue sedih .

ada dia pas gue nangis .

tp dia ga ada .

yeah , i have no one .

"Officially Missing You"

All I hear is raindrops

Falling on the rooftop

Oh baby tell me why’d you have to go

Cause this pain I feel

It wont go away

And today I’m officially missing you

I thought that from this heartache

I could escape

But I fronted long enough to know

There ain’t no way

And today

I’m officially missing you

can’t nobody do it like you

Said every little thing you do

Hey baby say it stays on my mind

And I, I’m officially

All I do is lay around

Two ears full of tears

From looking at your face on the wall

Just a week ago you were my baby

Now I don’t even know you at all

I don’t know you at all

Well I wish that you would call me right now

So that I could get through to you somehow

But I guess it’s safe to say baby safe to say

That I’m officially missing you

Well I thought I could just get over you baby

But I see that’s something I just can’t do

From the way you would hold me

To the sweet things you told me

I just can’t find a way

To let go of you

It official

You know that I’m missing you

Yeah yes

All I hear is raindrops

And I’m officially missing you

P.S. i miss you , kevin :'[

i miss you .

and they live HAPPILY ever after .

mencoba buat nerima semuanya .

i cried last night .

because of him again .

jdi gni ,

selasa tuh mw jalan m vera , tmen dia .

gue kira cm m ve doank . tp gtwny dia ikut .

yg dia sms gue wkt kmren" tuh dia blg gni ,

hey , pa kbr ? slasa mw ntn m ve ?

gt cnah .

dia ikut gtwnyaaa .

kmren gy smsn m chentonk ,

shindy : tooonnnkkk , tmenin gue ktemu dia dnk . bgung ktmu ap gaa .

Chen : kl km mw lupain dia shrsny ga perlu bgung. ga ad abisny shn kl km slalu luluh .

ak ga bs dmi kbaikan km, kl km mw mnta tmnin yg laen aj y.

shindy : jahat siah .

chen : u blg g jahat trus kevin apa , shin ? g nglakuin ni smua dmi kbaikan u kq ,cb u mnt phy , pst dy jg gmw .

yaudahlah , sedih bgd gue . kae kesanny t ga ad yg mw nemenin gue gtuh . haha .

i just know i have her . kl dia dah ngmg gni , gue pny sp gy ? huhu .

smua jah .

i just need more time .

to forget him .

cape bgd kaena kmren malem teh . hhuhu .

trus chen bialng , maa vndut , gue gtw kalo itu buthu waktu , proses , gue laupa .

huf .

emank dah wktny gue buat ninggalin dia gj kalii .

dah brp x gue blg gue syg dia ? tp dy gmw pduli . ydlah . cape gueny jg .

him

he texted me . again :(

hurt

3 days already passed away .

and for the first time ,

i knew i can stand it without him .

i had my friends :)

and it help me . really .

boys don't mean much for me , do they ?

i just need more time to forget him .

hari tu kae cepet bgd ya ? ujug" dah jumat gy jah ;p

hari ne mw ntn ice age 3 m maling kuburan d elos m gessa , tcy :)

tcy blm pasti c , tp kaena dia ikut hihiy .

asik ;p

gue blm bkin konsep buat nanti hari sabtu tanggal 11 buat ngisi acara mos gy .

bneran ga siap :(

doain yaa .

tanggal 7 nanti mulai EF gy .

aldi makan" .

dan gue malem tuh harus k bdg .

mw nginep m tnte wati m om uwo .

mw nginep d hilton ;p

2 mobil . nti gue ikt m mobil om uwo . ci fany yg nyetir .

trustrus nti mobil gue jd mobil barang ;p

lebay bgd ya brg mpe 1 mobil . iya c , pepegihan m mreka mah brg byk bangeeettt . hhe

can't wait that day ! :)

jadiii , gue ga bs ikut EF m k aldi deh ):

hhu .

skr gy nguin smsny gessa ,

dia blm beres les gy hdoh .

moga" jah hr ne jdi yaaa .

lnjt gy y nti . gy males ngeblogging ;p

CU .

xoxo

Let him go :)

on my older post , i told you about 1 guy .

yeah , him .

yea , my love was growing . 3 months .

we just closer , everyday .

my days became colorful when i passed it with him .

me made me love him endlessly .

i can't deny it , yea . i still love him now .

this second .

i still wants him to be mine .

but i know it can't .

he don't like me , for sure . haha .

and i don't know how long i can stay like this .

hurting .

crying .

sad .

my friends said to me ,

leave him !

he's just can make you sad , make you cry .

you miss him right here ,

is he know how hurt you ?

i still wanna be with him .

even he hurt me , and makes me bleeding .

i don't care .

but i realize ,

his life would be better without me .

*sigh

really hard for let him go .

i know its not easy . really .

i already introduced him to my mom and my mom best friend .

went to move with my best friends and his.

went to senayan with my friends .

i've never been in love like this )':

but i must let him go .

i felt my life so messy .

really ):

maybe its the best for him .

but not for me .

am i strong enough for let him go ? :'(