hello.

hello you :)
how are you there?
i'm sure you're perfectly fine..
it's great tho.
after all this time..
i miss you so bad..
you never know how many tears have been fallen for you..
do you have to make me feel like there's nothing left of me?
you have no idea how much this love push me.
how many fake smiles that i showed if they ask me, 'you're okay?'
how many memories are flown through my mind.
i miss those butterflies.
i miss when you were made me smile.
i miss the way you made me blush.
i miss the word that said you're here, for me. forever.
i miss your voice that said i love you.
i miss your guitar's sound..
ha.
i just try to take you out of my mind. out of my heart.
but yeah, you stay there.
always stay there.
do you feel the way i am hurt right now?
you just made me fall.
you;re not teaching me how to rise again, and move on if you're gone..
you left me like this..
i hope you remember me someday..
i hope you remember me, the girl that you ever loved.
will you? :)
it doesn't matter where you are right now..
you're always be here.
in my heart..
no matter how long you go..
you know i'm still here, waiting for you.
i used to hope that forever is have its meaning when i'm with you..
but, yes. forever is just a word.
i used to believe in forever..
until you really left.
but i know forever have its own meaning for me..
they said,
i'm stupid.
just keep hoping that you're gonna be back.
but yeah, maybe they are right..
you're just a dream for me.
you're just too good to be true for a terrible girl like me :)
and you're always be a dream for me..
can i keep you? in my dream. forever.
so i can't let one of this tears run down again.
so i can be with you there.
so i don't have to face the ugly truth.
i just wanna sleep forever..
if i can't have you in this cruel world,
so i can have you there.